Sunday, November 18, 2007

There are lots of things which happen to me the last two days.

first of all, i just wanna thank everybody who wish me happy bdae( sms, call, friendster, MSN) thank u guys for all your bdae wishes. All your bdae wishes meant alot to me...

alot of u have been asking me wht i did on bdae. sohere the reply to the question.

Was woken up for quite a few times by other ppl but it is ok as they wish me happy bdae(= got out of the bed at around 12+. den was prison breaking season 3 until bout 3.30.

next was community outreach at region D. To be honest, i always dreaded my feet to community outreach as it was at region D. There is nothing bad bout region D. it is just tt i dont have much frens in region D and often felt lyk an outcast to them. I just cant be able to click with the ppl there lyk i click with ppl from own region or close fren from other region. there will always be this strange feeling for me to be with them. i thnk tt the only person i can click well with is probably joanne, jasmine zheng and choo chye. this are the few ppl, the rest i hardly talk to them much. i hope to be transfer to other region for the next community outreach. the good thing bout region D outreach is tt it always end earlier den other outreaches. i learn something during outreach which made me quite happy.

While i was bout to leave, clarissa came up to me and wish me happy bdae. i was quite puzzled as i dont talk to her at all. Puzzled,i ask her how she noe tt it was my bdae today. den she told me i saw your gd frens(gang) at macs making something for u just now! tt just spoilt the surprise tt the gang was bout to give me.

After outreach, met with gang to go dinnering( already noe tt they were planning something for me but just dont now wht were they up to) they try their best to keep me in the dark and i actually pretended tt i dont noe tt something is bout to happen. i receive a msg from mic telling me tt something crop up and she cant join us for dinnering. i knew something was gg on and ern was also acting kinda of strangely. so yah den the gang say tt they didnt was to eat in yishun as they were sick and tired of yishun and wanted to go to town. so i just played along with their plans knowing somethign is gg to happen without knowing exactly wht will happen.

so we went to far east plaza and ate at some random shop. i ordered wanton mee. after eating afew mouth of it, i sense something was happening, i turned my head around and there was mic and gab with my bdae cake. and they started singing bdae songs for me. ern has many versions of bdae songs. the bdae cake was a super big cookie form famous amos. and they gave me the most unique bdae card ever( will post the pic in the next post.) they also brought for me an orange water bottle which matches my jacket and shoes.

thanks gang for everything tt u have done and arrange. although clarrisa did tell me tt u guys were making me something for me. it was still a surprise to me. as i did not expect the celebration to be at some random stalls. haha. and i sure did not expect the cake to be a cookie(= but i really lyk the unique card tt u all have made for me. and i have been reading it over and over and over again lei. i think tt this bdae was the best tt i had. thanks u all for making this bdae a memorable one for me. i really appreciate evry single one of u all. our gang rox(=

ok tt was how i spend my bdae.

today, pastor marion preach bout not getting distracted. at first i did not really understand the msg but i got it in the end. this msg hlp me alot. after thinking for most of today and after much careful consideration. i finally say wht i have been keeping i n my heart for quite sometime already. although the outcome wasnt wht i expected it to be. i am still glad tt i got the guts to say it out and let everybody noe the clearer picture of how i feel. it is not healthy to keep things in your heart. trust me. it will just make u ponder and wonder wht will the result be. if u get it all out, u will noe the outcome already. now tt i got it out and everybody have a clearer picture of how i feel. i do not noe whether it will be the same as it use to be or it will change for the gd or the worst, i do not noe, but i sure hope tt things could be the same.

telling u guys tt i am happy and not sad will be an utter lie. because there is a part of me tt is sad and empty.

i think wht i need now is to go for the por trip with an untroubled heart and i hope tt the tkk camp and hof camp will keep my mind occupied. now tt it is a load off, i hope i can go with an untroubled heart. i want to be spiritually revive during the camps. and i hope i can draw nearer to god during the camp.

"what will be will be." god has a plan for me and i want to walk in the path tt he has chosen for me. dont worry guys i will get over it. and i really hope tt our friendship will be the same, nothing will change. tt is wht i hope.

ok if u dont noe wht i am talking bout, it doesnt matter... it is very complicated. but if u read carefully u will noe wht i am talking bout. if u still dont, den maybe u are not tt close to me. so yah)= it is btr for u not to noe den to noe. tt all. i need to pack my luggage of the por trip and i am ROOMING WITH MY DAD!!! WOOTS(=

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